now that i've rejected the offer, i kinda regret it.. i wish for an opportunity to run away from everything around me.
i think i've become cynical.
the so called acts of concern and care from friends have started to become irritating and bothering rants from people. i dont know why i feel this way. i hate feeling this way.. its like having to feel irritated forever.
maybe i prefer to be what i was before. the fierce, antisocial amelia.
so DONT ask me what i'm doing when you see me online. most of the time, i'd rather be doing something other den pretending to be interested in conversing with you.
i've been so mean in this entry, even the blind would feel how irritated i was when i wrote it. Please start hating me.
stargazed @ 10:45 p.m.
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